A New Perspective

I don't know if its because February is now here and spring is just around the corner or that my body and heart are healing, but I've started to see things in a new light. I feel lighter, less gloomy, less sad. I'm looking forward. We will continue to try and have another baby and hopefully it will happen sooner rather than later, but I'm not going to dwell on what I've lost, instead what could be. I've taken the stress out of getting pregnant and I'm going to just let things happen because it's better for me, better for Blair and better for our family.

I'm never going to forget the little baby who was with me for such a short time, but I can't keep hoping for what wasn't to be. I know that it may sound silly, but I feel like I owe it to that baby to be happy. I was meant to have that baby, if only for the blink of the eye. Hopefully, I will love another baby, but in the mean time, I will hold a special place in my heart for our little "Frank" and share my love with Blair, Nicholas and Claire.

"What makes a Mother,
It’s the feeling in your heart,
It’s the love you had so much of
Right from the very start."

-author unknown